Discussion Prompt #2

[meganehaven]

If your OC could change one thing about themselves, what would it be?
A physical trait, an emotional attachment, or a fear? Perhaps a personality trait, or even their body's presentation? The possibilities are endless...

comment below your thoughts! <3

Comments

[lesbocannibal]

If you ask Roan, he’ll scoff and say, “Nothing, of course. I’m Roan Armiger, what else would I want?”. But deep down, there’s a part of him that he wants to excise: the child trapped inside of him that screams and clamors in fear, that never healed from all that he was put through as a schoolboy.

Vesper would say “I want bigger tits!”.

[meganehaven]

omg the difference between them there! lmao

i wonder if Roan will ever be able to heal from his childhood, but then again, theres a Lot going on rn that i dont think he has the time or capacity to process his trauma and work through it. what do you think about that tho? (:

[lesbocannibal]

ugh sorry this is so late... TBH one of my goals w/ this story is to write something where the trauma really is inevitable, and where it does follow you around until the day you die. It's not therapist-approved but it's also kind of a pessimistic vent. Roan is never able to even tell Vesper what happened to him, and he's never going to be able to heal fully. But he is definitely happier with Vesper.

This inevitability of trauma I feel like is more apparent w/ Vesper, since her story represents generational trauma. She chooses to break the cycle, but the only way for her to stop the abuse from perpetuating is for her family line to die with her. It's already too late for her, she's cursed. She'll still painfully wither away. The only way she could make things right was by destruction, there was no constructive way to do it. Just a bitter, thankless elegy for the wreck of the Conchita dynasty.

[dray]

I get you, Vesper (except the days of bad periods, sigh)

Roan sounds like he needs SOMEthing. Maybe to have something to shake and tear (or to be further shaken and torn, as sometimes is the wont of making characters!)

[lesbocannibal]

Oh you have no idea... Vesper's curse gives her basically Super Evil Endometriosis 5000. her menstrual blood is full of disgusting black mucus and she spends her periods lying in a warm bath and trying desperately not to vomit from cramp pain.

As for Roan... well Vesper is basically his chew toy lol. I see them as kind of symbolically a wolf (or other canine) and a plush toy. Ugh he definitely needs things but he'll never even accept them which annoys me!! Fuck this guy! (I love him)